Dreams vs Reality.

Have you guys ever just wondered, like if it's true, what people say about following your dreams and that we can become anything we want? Have you ever found yourself wondering if your dreams are too big for little you?
It's not a secret I'm a dreamer,  and one of the rules I live by is to do what I want, what I desire and what makes me happy. But suddenly it got to me that what if I can't do it, what if I wish too much to be happy? What if I'll never decide and never really achieve, anything? And, what if all that about those "Follow your dreams"-quotes are just BS crap to keep people hanging on?...

I feel like what my friends want is the safe things in life, a stabile job, getting married and settle down either in Oslo, Bærum or one of their childhood favourite places. And sometimes I feel blessed for wanting more than that, but it sure scares me too. There comes a point where your dreams meet your reality and you just don't know anymore, if you should go for something safe, or go for it all, you know?

I think that society makes it harder, because there are those few amazing jobs out there that is just like idk, so much fun you wouldn't even feel like you're working.  But then society tells us to go into a university, get a degree and become something you like and earn money to pay for house and yourself. Well, I don't want to just get by, I don't want to work just because I need to, or have a job I like. I want to work because I chose something I love. I want to find a job that I love, but I feel I need to go outside the box to do that, which I don't know will be the best decision ever or causing me to having to start over again because it didn't work..
And then I think, that there is a reason for why people don't go after those jobs, because it's intimidating and very few people get them, but then again, why can't I be one of those few? 

I guess that most people don't go after what they want, sometimes because they are ok settling with less, less is what they want, or sometimes because they're smart, but most of the time, I think,  because they're scared. And sometimes I think that you don't have to be the smartest person to get the furthest...:) I believe dumb decisons can lead you to exactly where you're supposed to be.

Bottom line is, I'm kinda splitted right now, if I wanna go for what society expects me to, and I know I would be ok with that, but it's a part of me who wants to go for something bigger, somthing that I wouldn't be ok with, but that I would love.. Oh well, time will show.:)

I just sometimes wish there were more people I knew that felt this way too, so I didn't have to feel so bad about not just wanting what everyone else wants. Someone I could share dreams and goals with, that I don't have to see the doubt in their eyes being all like "I'm happy for you, you can do it, but truth is I think it's a stupid decision and that you're aiming too far". That's like, I have amazing friends, but when it comes to my dreams I feel completely alone..

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Postat av: Maria

Forstår akkurat hva du mener!

Da jeg var liten tenkte jeg "å så gøy det hadde vært å være en danser, fotballspiller, modell, ingeniør, lege, forsker, en som reiser rundt i verden og blir kjent med masse nye mennesker... å, hadde jeg bare vært et naturtalent på en av disse tingene."

For bare et par år siden gikk det opp for meg at jeg faktisk kan bli hva enn jeg vil, at jeg kan gjøre hva enn jeg vil, at jeg kan bli den personen jeg ønsker å være. Om jeg bestemmer meg for det og fokuserer om å jobbe hardest mulig for å oppnå det, så kan jeg få det til å skje.

Det som er kjent er trygt, som å ha en kontorjobb, familie og å reise i feriene. Men jeg vil heller ikke være den 40-50 år gamle personen som sitter seg ned og tenker over alt jeg kunne ha gjort, eller alt jeg skulle ønske jeg hadde gjort.

Det jeg tror er det viktigste som finnes er å være komfortabel med seg selv, og ikke leve livet sitt for andre! Samtidig kommer "ole brumm-logikken" "ja takk, begge deler". Jeg vil også reise, og oppleve mye nytt. Samtidig som jeg vil ha et sted jeg kan kalle hjemme, og stifte familie. Det som skremmer meg mest er "hva om jeg allerede er på den siden hvor gresset er grønnest"...

Sorry for en lang kommentar, men dette innlegget traff meg rett i hjertet :) hehe

24.03.2012 @ 22:36
Postat av: Fiberbabe

Åh, Caroline! Nå tok jeg med meg PCen i senga for å kunne svare deg. Jeg er allerede på overtid/sommertid og skulle ha sovnet for en time siden, hehe.. =) Men uansett: Jeg skjønner akkurat hva du mener! Jeg lurer ofte på om jeg kanskje sikter for høyt eller om drømmene mine er helt urealistiske, men det er de ikke.. Man kan faktisk oppnå akkurat det man vil bare man vil det nok! Men problemet mitt er nok å finne ut hva jeg vil! For jeg vil så mye! Alt egentlig! Rekker jeg alt? Hvor skal jeg begynne? Hodet mitt er fullt av tanker og spørsmål hele tiden.. Jeg er redd for å gå glipp av noe, men samtidig så går jeg jo glipp av mye når jeg bruker all tiden min på å tenke på hva jeg vil..?! Så jeg var litt "Fuck it! Jeg bare reiser!" for litt siden og nå har jeg jo søkt permisjon og planlegger reisen min som jeg VET jeg ikke kommer til å angre på.. =) Selv om familie/samfunn kanskje forventer at jeg skal kjøpe hus og få barn og alt det der, så har jeg faktisk ingen problemer med å bruke opp pengene mine på å oppfylle drømmen min.. Jeg tror det gjør meg mye lykkeligere (håper jeg) <3

25.03.2012 @ 23:09
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